can we work it out? can we be a family? yeah yeah now, sing Video code provided by MusicVideoCodes.com sorry bout that i just feel groggy and hyper all at the same time. im writting shit!

i so much hated my father for being with that stupid ho! he's actually finalizing his replacement for my mom! i hate him!!!!!

people like him should never have existed in this world! i hope it will never work out for them! and dont dare he to come back at my mom! i swear i will smack the crap out of him! and i dont care if he's my father!

As always, I've been having too many thoughts roaming my mind and it's forcing me into this strange state. I'm at such a loss to define how I feel, but I want to so badly. I want to think of the words and be able to deliever them perfectly and beautifully... but, I'm afraid I'd get the words jumbled and confused and I would appear even less eloquent as I normally do. Therefore, I will bite my tongue for the time being and continue to wish that I wasn't such a coward...

After I forced the jewlery off my friend, jim, we took a really nice walk, well directly after we both covered ourselves in as many jackets as we could find around his house. We both looked like the marshmellow man from the Ghostbusters movies. But we had a good time. And now I am about to go crawl into bed with him and beg until he agrees to watch Breakfast at Tiffanys until we fall asleep.

I got on AIM today for the first time in quite some time. And I got to talk to my baby Eliza after years of missing that hoBEAUTIFUL, TALENTED young lady. I missed her so desperately. Now where is my Lex? Or my Kay tee... or Dicap? Tob? Bob? .. and the millions of others I don't feel like listing.

this morning my mom called to tell me her husband cheated on her. she wasn't crying the way that she did when my dad did it, and she begged him not to leave.

she asked me what i would do. i told her i would never let any man put me second in his life that way, and that she deserved better. i told her to kick him out, to send him back to that cheap whore he was sleeping with to see just how long she would keep him warm at night. my mom told me that was what she thought i would say.

and in that moment, when i finished speaking that speel about self worth and never been taken for granted, i felt like a hypocrite. because right now, i am second. i gave my own mother advice i couldn't even take myself, and i felt like the biggest asshole on the face of the earth.